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I learned some HTML once, then forgot it all. Listening to John Fahey again kinda stoned and stifling indigestion from dinner of Pizza and Chili. No one ever BLOGs anymore do they? Was everyone trying to become a writer? If everyone's a writer how is anyone a "writer"? I never went around saying I was a poet, musician, songwriter, artist or student pilot just because I did those things a few times. Maybe you're only a real writer if someone publishes you somewhere. Yeah that's probably it. I never have sought any kind of official recognition for anything I've ever done, for some reason. Something inherently disagreeable about me. People were supposed to want people to read their... blogs...weblogs, logs on the web. Your diary? Why did we want people to read our diaries? Were we all trying to prove how brave we were? Was any of it just a way to get self satisfaction by subtly showing off their life? The strongest and most popular monkeys have become our Influencers.

I deny myself, I don't know any other way. I'm going to die and I really don't like it. I really don't like how much time it's been, and its all time, and the past is turning into more than the present means to me.